TheBurning1

I'm so tired. I've caught a lot of bad luck since my last journal. I started back at my job (I guess that's good news?)! But it's going on three weeks and those old feelings of depression and wanting to just die have come back to the surface. I spent 17 months on recovery only to have those old habits return in less than a month? Something isn't right about that. More good news about my job! (/s) They won't start paying me until the middle of next month (April 2019) so I've been pretty much working for free. No health insurance, just lost my phone and car insurance, and my bank account is firmly in the red. They expect me to keep working with

So in Feb of this year, I commissioned an artist for a half body piece of Valkyr Prime, Graxx Skin. I paid in two installments. Last payment was made on August 25th, 2018 after reaching out to this artist and informing them of my situation. This artist, who I trusted with works in the past, told me that my image was already done and that it would be sent to me within one or two weeks. Two months have passed. When an artists gives me their word on a deadline, I trust them. I don't hound them or watch their social media for info. I reached out to this artist today (November 9th, 2018) and informed them that they had missed their deadline (gros